Today was a great day! I spent most of the day chatting with a dear friend, a girl, talking about diets, fitness, Families, bucket lists and SEX. I enjoy our conversations so much. I can talk to her about anything. She makes me laugh, She makes me think and She is a great motivator! We made plans to start walking and I am thrilled about that. I need motivation. I hate to say it, but I NEED encouragement. Who doesnt, right? My reasons for walking with her are kinda selfish, I love this girl, love being around her, talking with her, she's the Sister I never had, the Mother I craved, the friend I've always cherished.
It was a good day foodwise... scrambled eggs for breakfast, carrots at my work desk, Chicken Cesar salad for lunch, mcdonanlds childrens cheese burger (does it count if I was immediately in the bathroom afterwards?) Uggh I hate McDonalds. There is something WRONG with the food there! But I was strapped for time, so tired, and anxious to move along in my errands, so I justified it. I am really very good at justifying things, I've been doing it all my life really. "Quit it Jaded Girl!!" I know, I know... I need to do some major changes. I was telling a girl today that I can't give up every single vice.I can't allow myself to cut out all sugar completely, all my favorite foods...that I am just going to take those extra joyful sins in moderation. I know that it will be instant failure if I make an attempt to cut them out completely. I've tried it before. So this time, this final time of dieting, I am trying to go with a plan that allows me to stick with it for the rest of my life. I know there will be days for cake. I know there will be nights of champagne. Evenings out with friends and bar steaks, yummy sauces. I don't want those nights to rule my life, nor do I want the idea that I can NEVER have cake or bar steaks again.
So MY PLAN... Take one day at a time, don't be so hard on Myself. Allow myself to make adjustments in my plans, to make and meet goals. I am going to start walking. I am tackling the ab lounger and the elipitcal machine. I decided today that my treat for losing 50 pounds (by the end of August) will be a gym membership that has a pool. I love to swim, absolutely LOVE to swim. That is going to be my reward, and a sly step in assuring I'll keep myself active in the winter months.
Life is Good!