Today was a great day! I spent most of the day chatting with a dear friend, a girl, talking about diets, fitness, Families, bucket lists and SEX. I enjoy our conversations so much. I can talk to her about anything. She makes me laugh, She makes me think and She is a great motivator! We made plans to start walking and I am thrilled about that. I need motivation. I hate to say it, but I NEED encouragement. Who doesnt, right? My reasons for walking with her are kinda selfish, I love this girl, love being around her, talking with her, she's the Sister I never had, the Mother I craved, the friend I've always cherished.

It was a good day foodwise... scrambled eggs for breakfast, carrots at my work desk, Chicken Cesar salad for lunch, mcdonanlds childrens cheese burger (does it count if I was immediately in the bathroom afterwards?) Uggh I hate McDonalds. There is something WRONG with the food there! But I was strapped for time, so tired, and anxious to move along in my errands, so I justified it. I am really very good at justifying things, I've been doing it all my life really. "Quit it Jaded Girl!!" I know, I know... I need to do some major changes. I was telling a girl today that I can't give up every single vice.I can't allow myself to cut out all sugar completely, all my favorite foods...that I am just going to take those extra joyful sins in moderation. I know that it will be instant failure if I make an attempt to cut them out completely. I've tried it before. So this time, this final time of dieting, I am trying to go with a plan that allows me to stick with it for the rest of my life. I know there will be days for cake. I know there will be nights of champagne. Evenings out with friends and bar steaks, yummy sauces. I don't want those nights to rule my life, nor do I want the idea that I can NEVER have cake or bar steaks again.

So MY PLAN... Take one day at a time, don't be so hard on Myself. Allow myself to make adjustments in my plans, to make and meet goals. I am going to start walking. I am tackling the ab lounger and the elipitcal machine. I decided today that my treat for losing 50 pounds (by the end of August) will be a gym membership that has a pool. I love to swim, absolutely LOVE to swim. That is going to be my reward, and a sly step in assuring I'll keep myself active in the winter months.

Life is Good!

1 comment:

  1. Wow, I needed to read something like this today. I'm almost done with my second full week on a diet and I feel like I cheated last night although I stayed well within my range of calories and fat, etc. It's so easy to lose perspective when you are making a change in your life that feels so foreign. It's so important to try to keep things in perspective though and realize that we can have some of those yummy things occasionally.