A Quick Minute

I'm not here for long, just a quick post. The WW meeting went really well yesterday, I loved it in fact! So much good information and it was great to get my books. woo hoo! I made a quick stop to the grocery store for some good food. I feel confident in my choices! Yay Jaded Girl!

I'm cleaning the house! So much to do there. I can not wait for SPRING! I guess this is my spring cleaning! Woo hoo Jaded! I enjoy talking to myself obviously! haha.

I love this world of blogging. I love that I can find so much inspiration amongst all these amazing people. I feel so blessed! When I first decided to embark on this ridiculous journey (reminder, it's only ridiculous because it has taken me so long to choose this path), I thought that I would feel alone in my challenges and obstacles. I thought I would have to secretly diet. Know what I mean? It seems as soon as you pronounce "I'm on a diet" all chaos breaks out. Literally. Significant other wants to go out, suddenly a million birthday parties, work goes into Potluck Tuesday mode...the list can go on and on. It's scary telling people. It is scary to admit that I'm dieting. It seems too that once you say those words you have a million watchful eyes! You're not so sure about the reactions you'll get, or if you want people to react at all. Come on, in all honesty.... I'VE SEEN THE PICTURES OF MYSELF! I KNOW that I need to be on this path of getting fit and healthy! I know this, I really really do. There are still things that can get in the way. Insecurities mainly. What happens when I am at the healthy me? Sometimes ::secret secret:: I worry that maybe I'll go to far. Maybe I'll be on a momentum of shedding this baggage and I'll decide to shed more and more. Kinda scary thinking that. Really scary actually. I know too, that I'm comfortable in my skin, I don't like attention and already I get enough of it. I know that a slimmer, healthy me will create more attention...both good and bad. I know I know, health is more important, and it is the very track that I am on. I'm just venting here. Letting loose a really big fear. :::sigh::: I know I'll just have to deal with that when I get to that bridge. I need to keep thinking Health Health Health.

I did ask a friend to keep me accountable, to tell me if I take it too far. I know that those of you that read will do the same for me as well. Have I told you how thankful I am for you? Really truly thankful! It is a great feeling knowing that people really care about the journey I am on, not just care and hope for a healthy me, but care enough to offer support and much needed advice. So THANK YOU!!

Life is Good!

Monday

I've always loved Mondays. The start of a new week! Getting back on schedule. I really hate the disorganization of the weekends. Really Really. i look forward to Mondays. Particularly this Monday... I joined weight watchers and missed my first meeting last week due to snow. So today I am off to partake in my first official meeting and weigh in. Let's just say I am glad because I have felt so darn confused by the e-tools offered online thru weight watchers.

I dreamed last night that it snowed. I decided I had better go out and warm the beast up, only to discover some jack had left the passenger door open! The battery was dead. I was instantly mad. It's always amazed me how much emotion you can find in a dream. I was really ticked! I wanted to kick someones ass. Somehow, probably because I realized I was dreaming, I managed to hit the steering wheel hard enough to get the beast to start. woo hoo. Then I decided to go four-by-fouring... woo hoo, thru the field I went.

I'm kinda going to take on my day the very same as I did my dream... I'm going to put myself into four wheel drive and get things done. no more horsing around. :-)

Life is good!

again

It's me again. so far a good weekend. I've SLEPT. I realize when I sleep I can not be EATING. haha. I think I'm coming down with the flu, or maybe it's just plain old depression. I'm not a happy girl right now. I'm still feeling extremely frustrated. I keep thinking about that phrase though, that so many people are using now in the their blogs " I AM THE ONLY ONE HOLDING MYSELF BACK." just me, I get all the credit. Which means I get all the credit when I succeed. So far I am doing good on my path to healthiness. yay Jaded. I put on a smaller pair of jeans just because I could. They are still from the phat store. ughh. but cute anyhow. I have this jean fetish. no joke. I went thru my jeans the other day and I counted 43 pairs. That was AFTER I made a pile of some I could part with. Really, no joke! Sigh.. I don't mind my addictions, really I don't. I am just glad that I am slowly overcoming my addiction to chocolate and thee soda pop, my addiction has really slimmed back there. hee hee I make myself laugh.

It is raining outside, so I have no interest to go out. Charlie and Lola said hello to me this morning, charlie is still kicking my ass but I think I'm doing a good job with Lola. I really don't understand how people can do hours on their work out equipment. I can hardly take 5 minutes on Charlie. I've found myself going back several times a day to greet him. My goal is to get past 5 minutes, so far no luck though. damn him.

Off I go...I think I should take another nap. :-)